Yup. That's me. I am a bitter bitch because people I have completely trusted with my heart have lied to me and shit on me. I used to be a very trusting giving soul, but now every kind gesture shown to me screams of some hidden agenda and how I am useful in the process to get what the using liar needs. This bitter build up has evolved over four decades. I keep looking for genuine kindness, but I get shot down repeatedly. That's why my circle of friends is incredibly small. I have TONS of superficial friends and don't lack social interaction, but I have very VERY few close ones.
I have had liars sincerely look into my eyes and feed me shit. This is not just in the realm of personal relationships, either. One employee I completely trusted and stuck up for when others found criticism embezzled $100,000 from me. Ouch.
I don't even trust a therapist to help me with my lack of trust issues. I guess I'll just have to vent on this useless blog and trust that there are at least a few good people out there. Problem is that I know I'm lying to myself.
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