Ugly Baby

 Yes, there is the obligatory "awwwwwwwww isn't he cuuuuuuuuuute" response when babies are thrown in your face.  

Here's the truth.

The baby that was thrown in my face was NOT that cute.  The baby's father thinks his baby will be the second coming of Christ with offers of college football scholarships galore.  

Here's where reality slaps baby daddy in the face.  The baby is almost a year old and still does not crawl, scoot, nor try to walk.  The baby wears a helmet because his skull is malformed.  The goal of the helmet is  to try to shape his head as he grows.  I see a short, yellow school bus in this kid's future along with special education.  This is no slam against the poor kid.  He will be loved (at least by us) no matter what. 

Mind you, the baby's parents tried to be all hippy-organic from the git go.  The baby was *not* born at a hospital despite recommendations for a hospital birth from the medical professionals.  The Baby Daddy wanted to cheap out as his insurance would require $$$$$ for the baby to be born at an accredited hospital. {note:  mom and dad are not married and mom has subpar health insurance}

Instead, the baby was born at home in a bathtub as that was the most economical option for Baby Daddy who wants a kid, but not necessarily the mother.  The mother is a necessary nuisance, as far as what I can tell.  Baby Daddy has no real commitment to her and does not want one. 

Fast forward a few months.  

The baby is ONLY fed fruits and vegetables that have been pureed by the parents.  Read:  We only want baby JJ to eat "organic" foods.  

Great.  All this strict feeding your baby organic food shit has left you with a baby with a lopsided head that can't crawl nor walk despite being a year old because Daddy cheeped out and did not want you born at a hospital.  

Mommy an daddy are not married, but they have Baby together.  Baby Daddy has a big ego and thinks his kid will play for the San Diego Charges or the San Diego Padres.  Baby Daddy will post pictures of himself with the baby, but not with the baby mother. 

Neither will be happening.  Now that it's been discovered Baby does not have the athletic promise it is anticipated that Baby Daddy will disappear back to Ohio and Baby Momma will be left of her own to raise the kid -- in the short, yellow bus. 

The Dream of Dad Part III

The last few days as I've been puttering about the house in complete solitude, I've been talking to my deceased father.  There is no pomp and circumstance involved.  I'm making the bed, cleaning the kitchen, whatever, folding laundry, and talking to my deceased father.  I told him I would like to have a conversation with him and to please give me a sign.  I realize that we had a rocky relationship (read:  dysfunctional) at times, and he had his own dynamics to deal with during his lifetime with HIS mom and dad, and also with the marriage to my mother.   Dad's life was not ideal.  He tried to make the best of it.  Us kids were collateral damage in the process. 

It happened last night.  In my dream my father was standing in my kitchen near the bar stools.  I was coming in from the hall way towards the kitchen.  There was an entity to my left.  I don't know who/what it was and even if it had a human form.  All I heard the entity say was, "Now is your chance.  Go."

I walked up to my dad who was now standing in front of me in the kitchen.  I knew he was dying.  I went up to him and gave him a HUGE hug.  I told him I understood and that all was forgiven.   At that moment we both said to each other at the same time, "We did it!"

At that moment my father died while I was giving him a hug.  I knew we had made peace with each other. 

The Republican Debate

 Tonight was the republican debate.  I love watching live debates.  This is really the only realm where we can actually get a glimpse of a candidate's real nature that is unfiltered by our biased media.  Granted, the questions are very generalized and specific answers are impossible, but a candidate's raw emotion and how they treat their fellow candidates is very telling.   We get Miss America answers from the candidates gushing their fake passion for an issue they think resonates with voters that says a lot but translates to nothing.  A huge turn-off for me is when candidates disrespect other candidates and moderators -  and ignore debate rules. 

The candidates can't hide behind every mask.

There is a lot I agree with republicans on, and there is a lot I disagree on.  I can't say I subscribe to any political party faithfully.  That is why politicians hate me.  I guess the feeling is mutual.  

I would by lying if I stated that I'm politically savvy.  I'm not.   Here are my kitchen-table discussions with others from all political perspectives.  Take them or leave them.  I do vote.  Here's the consensus across party lines where we all kind of agree to some degree.  LOL. 

Abortion:  Against abortion?  Don't have one.  That should automatically silence half the argument right there from those with testacles.  It does not.  Maybe we should be pro-vasectomy for all males at age 10 until proven that a sperm spreader can support both emotionally and financially their ill-timed ejaculations.  Silence from men.  I thought so.  Hey, all you men want to decide what happens in our uterus, we women get to decide your ability to father.  We women get to use our tool of choice on men to make sure unplanned fatherhood does not happen.  Men get NO say in the matter .  Fair is fair.   yeah.... I see you all now grasping your balls like they are some sort of sacred (scrotum) matter.  They are not.  Sperm is plentiful and everywhere.  Yours is not special.  

Fuuuuuuuuuck.  I can't believe this is even an issue in the 21st century.

Foreign Policy:   If you make a hard bed you have to lie in it.  That's what we have done on the global state.  Please, stop parading us around like we are saviors to the world for justice and freedom.  We are not.  We are mercenaries.  Quit trying to pretend otherwise.  The rest of the world is not fooled.

Economy:  Yes, inflation has taken a bite out of everybody's finances.  I'm not sure blaming any one source for the inflation is fair.  I'm not convinced the president has a lot of control over the economy as it is so complicated and intertwined on both the national and international level.  Here's one thing you can bet on with politicns....they all like to take credit when the economy it is good, and place blame when it is bed.  

All the republicans were bemoaning that the average American can't afford a home and keep up with inflation.  However, republicans want to gut unions and any other sort of organization that demands dignified working conditions, which are the back bone of our diminishing middle class.  

Huh?

Illegal Immigration:  Republicans (and also Marin limousine liberals) love illegal immigration.  Who else would clean their houses, paint their houses, mow their lawns, and nanny their children?  No matter what they say, republicans love slipping desperate immigrants who crossed the border illegally cash under the table to do their slave work.  Coastal Democrat Elites are especially guilty of this despite their cries for social justice for all.  

Global Warming:  I was somewhat shocked that a 38 year-old millennial would deny global warming. I think this is the most important issue we face.  

 

 

Nothing New Under The Sun

 There is nothing new under the sun, people.  Whatever thoughts you've had, ideals you think you've created, unusual situations, it's all been done before.  That includes me on this stupid blog.  Nothing I state is original.  Somebody has thought of it before.

Which takes me to society and governments.  Nobody has the great and grand ideas to save us all.   It's all been done before.  It always fails eventually.  

The answer is there is no answer.   

Grow your soul, people.  I'm not here to push a religion.  I'm here to invite you to allow yourself to open to the possibility that everything you know is wrong, and this entire world is not what it appears to be.  

Great!  You want to grow your soul.  Your soul is like a wild animal.  You won't get to know it or observe its true self by stomping through the forest loudly calling for it.  It will be frightened and not approach you.  Sit very still by a tree, brook, flower, anything that is quiet in nature for an hour and stare at it.  You may get a side glimpse of your soul as it wants to get to know you as well.  It will probably scurry away if you make any sudden moves.   Don't be discouraged if it takes more than one try.  After all, you have ignored your true self all of your life.  No wonder it is skittish. 

Climate Change

 I hate to burst anybody's bubble, but it's too late to rectify our abuses of Mother Earth.  There are simply too many humans.  Humans are flawed by nature.  Unless you can wipe greed and self-importance out of the human ego, which even Jesus Himself was unable to do, our doom is sealed.  

Earth will look very different 200 years from now.  Don't ask me how I know this.  I just do.  Besides, if I told you, you would just want to argue with me.  Will our values adjust?  Somewhat.  Our extreme weather is just the beginning of what scientists have warned us about for decades.  Still, governments are still clinging onto the notion that fossil fuels are somehow "good" as they provide jobs, which provides payroll tax revenue, which provides property tax revenue, etc.  

As long as MONEY is the base of our existence, nothing will help.  Money makes the world go around - until it doesn't.  

We have all been warned.  Still, we want more and more money, bigger houses, fancier cars, more trips to Africa to observe the natives like they are zoo animals and pretend to live like them - until we realize there is no running water nor a Starbucks nearby.  

Generation Z

Maui Fires

 It's so eerily familiar.  The confusion, traffic jams, devastation and destruction.  We were in Maui just about a month ago where we stayed at Napili Point, which is just north of Lahina.  We have been taking family vacations there for 30 years and have had many Christmas card photos with the parrots under the infamous banyan tree in Lahina.  My son and husband used to take fishing excursions from a boat that left from the little harbour there.  

I'm getting off track.  When we were en route to the Kahahui Airport on our return trip, I was taking a look around and mentioned to everybody in the car how dry it was and ripe for a fire, as I recalled there was a fire on Maui not so very long ago.  The grasses were so dry.  I then took a look at some power lines in the distance and thought to myself it would not take much as the winds were relentless our entire trip and there was not a hurricane to blame. 

Oh well, come back to Sonoma County and resume my life and mundane routine.  We all have a tendency to get quickly absorbed into our own lives with our heads in the sand oblivious to the bigger picture.  Ignorance is bliss.

We were in Minnesota visiting family when the news broke out about the town of Lahina being destroyed.  What?  Really?  Nobody knew at the time how awful it was about to become.  I had flashbacks to the Tubbs Fire in 2017 that destroyed our old neighborhood in Coffey Park including the house we used to live in.  

We are the lucky ones.  We were never personally impacted by the Maui Fires nor the Tubbs Fire.  However, we know so many people who lost their homes and in some instances their lives.  

I feel sooooooo sorry for the Maui fire victims.  There are so many people there we know and their stories are heartbreaking.  Some poor bastards who survived the Tubbs Fire also got caught up in the Maui Fire as so many people from Sonoma County visit Maui.  

I'm scheduled for a work trip to Ka'anapali the first week of November.  I don't think it will happen.  Hotel space is needed for emergency personnel and to house the victims.  Besides, I really don't want to be there pretending everything is normal and having a grand ol' time while the entire island is still in ashes and shock.  I think it's disrespectful. 

We did make a monetary donation and plan to help from the mainland.  Let's face it.  They really don't want a bunch of us haoles over there.  For those unfamiliar with Hawaiian slang, a haole is a white person (not a compliment in case you're wondering).  

The below video is from the Tubbs Fire when firefighters were not even sure of the impact and nobody knew what was going on and the devastation that was unfolding right in front of them.  

 

Tesla Drivers

 OMG!  The WORST drivers are those who drive Teslas.  I suppose we can blame part of it as they are, a-hem, self driving.  The old joke used to be:

Q:  What is the difference between a BMW and a porcupine?

A:  The BMW has the prick on the inside.

Just watch any a-hole on the freeway these days.  Most likely they are the drivers of a Tesla.  They race up and ride your bumper, veer off and cut off other cars trying to make an exit from the far left lane to the exit ramp on the right, do not take their turn at stop signs.  I could go on and on.  

Tesla drivers should all be lined up and shot.  They think they are superior to everybody else and that their feces does not stink. 

There.  I said it.  I'm waiting for the deluge of hate mail.  The hate mail I will receive will be from whiny Tesla drivers trying to defend their asshole behavior.  The undertone is always that they think they are better than everybody else.  

Well, goooooooody for them.  They want to parade themselves as elite saviors of the environment.  They are far from that.  Their electrical charging costs the environment in ways they don't want to talk about....as does the car battery....in ways they don't want to talk about....the mining of lithium.  They also don't want to talk about the carbon emissions generated from their jet setting lifestyle to stay in a huge mansion that was built on a hillside of greenery that was lopped off to accommodate 10,000 square feet of living space along with a helicopter pad.

Bottom Line:  Those who purport themselves as saviors of the environment by purchasing a Tesla (or any electric vehicle) are the worst criminals of the environment.  Purchasing a Tesla does not erase the effects of airline travel, or any travel for that matter.  

We are all parasites on Mother Earth.   Mother Earth is about to puke us all out, and rightfully so.  We are the virus that is causing her to run a fever (global warming).  We will either kill Mother Earth, or Mother Earth will kill us.  

That's where it's at, people.  And nobody gives a shit if you drive a fucking Tesla or not. 

Porn Palace

 My niece married a convicted child molester who spent 2 years in prison.  "But auntie, you just don't understand!  He's such a wonderful person," exclaims my niece. 

Long story short he tells everybody he works from home for Amazon and is close personal friends with Jeff Bozo - ooops I mean Bezos.

Bullshit.

They get their money from filming porn at their house.  My niece is a porn star.  They live in a huge house that I'm sure they write off as a business expenses as a working studio.  What worries me is that they now have a 9 year-old daughter that would fetch a high price for child porn, which her father is into.  

My niece invited me to come to their house, hang out, go swimming, etc.  There was no way I wanted to go to the porn palace.  I was afraid I would drown her baby daddy. 

More Names

 As I type this I am in my childhood bedroom in Minnesota.  I'm looking out the window I used to sneak out of as a teenager to meet my boyfriend who was waiting for me in his hot rod car.  

Sigh.

I'm lucky enough to still have friends from my childhood.  I like to refer to them as my coven.  It's no accident we were all born within a 5 month period of each other.  When we were in light form we were all in the planning room and decided to make this incarnation together.  One by one, like paratroopers jumping out of a plane,  we descended into a human body with a location near the others.  It's time for ground combat to grow our souls. 

I have names for most of those in my coven.  The names come over time and the process can't be rushed.  Some have not come to me yet.  It takes years, decades perhaps, for the right name to come.  Here we go.

Star Heart:  A very old and gentle soul who knows. Her intuition is ALWAYS spot on.

Soul Shine:  Another very old soul with a lot of fun and spunk and is not impressed with bright, shiny objects.

Healer:  Pulled herself out of an abusive situation where her father molested her.  She now uses her strength to help other kids.

Blue Eagle:  A soul who does not know her own strength.  She does not fully recognize how powerful she is.  She does not give herself enough credit.  

It is Blue Eagle I'm worried about theses days.  There are family dynamics that are not exactly healthy.  I know she knows this.  I'm not sure if her coping mechanisms will be in her best interest in the long run.  We will all stay by her side no matter what.  

Blue Eagle is a HUGE Led Zeplin fan.  She discovered her love of the band fairly recently.  What is ironic is that this song has always reminded me of her since we were in grade school.  Don't ask me why.