Cheers to MRH

MRH was a great dancer.  She loved this video and the choreography.  I hope her soul has found peace.  

October Deaths

 Let's see.....so many of my significant relationships in life have had deaths in October.  My cousin, both my grandparents (who died on the same day 20 years apart), my auntie Em (no joke), my first serious boyfriend, and now one of my dear friends from childhood.  

Ironically, it was MRH who informed me about Dave's death last year.  Now it's her turn.  At this moment she is dying.  Last report was today around 1:30 PM Pacific time from her sister.  Her breaths were 8 per minute and they were not going to move her out of the hospital because she is so fragile and at the end of life.  MRH is calling for her deceased mother.  

Every once in a while I feel a gush of air and the hair on my arms stands up.   Her spirit guides are congregating to transition her soul and those from the other side are coming to assist her.  

 

 

Processing A Death That Has Yet to Happen

 It's official.  MRH is in hospice care.  She could go tomorrow or in a few weeks.  I am processing a death that has not yet happened.  The texts the coven are receiving from MRH's sister are heart breaking.  MRH can't feed herself, walk more than a few steps, and sleeps most of the time.  MRH did ask if she was going to be ok.  The answer the medical staff gave her was no.  She then nodded and went back to sleep.  

MRH and her then husband were the first couple we entertained and cooked dinner for at our apartment in Novato back in 1988.  JH (her husband at the time) was in the Navy and he was at Moffett Field near Mountain View.  

When MRH got her breast cancer diagnosis some years back I used to send her marijuana from CA.  I knew I was taking a risk, but I would gladly serve as the poster child from my jail cell for sending somebody suffering from the effects of radiation and chemo something to comfort them.   

MRH and JH opened their house to me when I was going through some serious marital issues.  They made room for me despite having a houseful of kids.  When their son got older he was on a semi-pro hockey team in Fresno.  We drove down to Fresno to meet up with MRH and JH to watch their son play.  They also came up to Sonoma County to visit a couple of times when they were out in CA watching their son play.   It was not too long after that MRH and JH split up.  

It's so hard to watch somebody self-destruct despite having all the resources, love, and support around them.   

Just WHERE have I BEEN lately?

 Whelp.... I have hardly slept in my own bed since June.  For the three actual readers of this dumb blog this may make some sense as to why I have been so quiet for 2025.  

I travel a lot.  Most of it is for work.  I have been to Chicago, Alaska, Hawaii, San Diego, Tahoe, PLEASANTON  (there is nothing pleasant about Pleasanton, California) just like there is nothing pleasant about Pleasant Hill,,,where there is no hill and nothing is pleasant.  My company thinks there is something magical about getting all of us together in a stuffy conference room in a non-descript office park in San Ramon, which is near Pleasanton,....not to be mistaken for Martinez nor Walnut Creek.  Hard to tell the difference.    

I just found out I get to ditch out on Washington D.C.  Thank GOD!  Why?  Air traffic controllers are walking off the jobs as they are not getting paid due to the government shut-down.  

Here's my unsolicited advice:  if you do not have to travel by air.....don't.  You are safer accepting a ride in a beat-up van with a crack-head driver who jokes about raping and killing you.   

42 Years Ago Today

42 years ago today my cousin-sister died in an automobile accident in rural North Dakota.  42 years ago my boyfriend at the time tried to console me.  He is now dead as well.  

There is now another death that is pending.  MRH was one of my high school besties.  We were on the dance line together and we would hang out on the weekends.  She would also participate in our coven weekends in northern Minnesota at Blue Eagle's cabin before she totally went off the rails.  Sadly, MRH has had a very difficult life despite being born the baby princess to her financially secure family who doted on her.  MRH has been on a downhill spiral ever since her dad died about a year ago (her mom passed a few years ago).  MRH has been struggling with mental health issues along with being a raging alcoholic for many, many years.  It has cost MRH her husband, siblings, and kids.   

MRH came out to visit me a year ago February.  She functioned like a 5 year old kid.  It was exhausting.  This was before her dad died and even then I wondered then what she was going to do when he died as he was already in his 90's. 

Today my Minnesota coven received a text from MRH's sister stating that she is in the hospital in critical condition.  She had not left her apartment in 2 months and ordered everything online.  MRH called 911 after drinking a bottle of rubbing alcohol at 3:00 AM.   

Drinking the rubbing alcohol was the straw that broke the camel's back.  MRH had resumed drinking heavily despite many, many attempts at rehabilitation.  Her mental status does not help.  Fighting depression, bipolar disorder, ADHD, and anxiety only pretty much guaranteed she would not get better.   

I'm waiting for the text stating that MRH has passed.  I have this sinking feeling she will not leave the hospital.   

For what it's worth, the song 'Leave It' by YES will ALWAYS remind me of MRH as will the phrase, "Sit on a corn cob and ROTATE."  I can still see her in the high school gym at dance line practicing a dance she had choreographed to it.  She was a really great dancer.