42 Years Ago Today

42 years ago today my cousin-sister died in an automobile accident in rural North Dakota.  42 years ago my boyfriend at the time tried to console me.  He is now dead as well.  

There is now another death that is pending.  MRH was one of my high school besties.  We were on the dance line together and we would hang out on the weekends.  She would also participate in our coven weekends in northern Minnesota at Blue Eagle's cabin before she totally went off the rails.  Sadly, MRH has had a very difficult life despite being born the baby princess to her financially secure family who doted on her.  MRH has been on a downhill spiral ever since her dad died about a year ago (her mom passed a few years ago).  MRH has been struggling with mental health issues along with being a raging alcoholic for many, many years.  It has cost MRH her husband, siblings, and kids.   

MRH came out to visit me a year ago February.  She functioned like a 5 year old kid.  It was exhausting.  This was before her dad died and even then I wondered then what she was going to do when he died as he was already in his 90's. 

Today my Minnesota coven received a text from MRH's sister stating that she is in the hospital in critical condition.  She had not left her apartment in 2 months and ordered everything online.  MRH called 911 after drinking a bottle of rubbing alcohol at 3:00 AM.   

Drinking the rubbing alcohol was the straw that broke the camel's back.  MRH had resumed drinking heavily despite many, many attempts at rehabilitation.  Her mental status does not help.  Fighting depression, bipolar disorder, ADHD, and anxiety only pretty much guaranteed she would not get better.   

I'm waiting for the text stating that MRH has passed.  I have this sinking feeling she will not leave the hospital.   

For what it's worth, the song 'Leave It' by YES will ALWAYS remind me of MRH as will the phrase, "Sit on a corn cob and ROTATE."  I can still see her in the high school gym at dance line practicing a dance she had choreographed to it.  She was a really great dancer.